Riding with the Moon

I long for a fairytale love
I long for a Knight on a white steed
The facade I wear is cracking
And I cannot pretend any longer
I cannot blink away tears of a faltering hope

I am young, I am old
Time is but a luxury that cannot be wasted
On a search that may possibly destroy dreams
Dreams of a scared little girl
My dreams

Blue orficases lurk in the distance
An out-stretched hand I glimpse is out of reach
I scream
But the silence is deafening
The voice that would have been is not heard

The song has now come to end

And so I fall on my knees
My tear-stained face turned upward
Toward the night sky
My hands clasped toegther
Against a withering organ

The celestial sphere above, twinkles
Yet I can see the tiny flames slowly flicker and fade
Like the hope I had for a love that remains unknown

I pray
Angels lead me to my knight
Lead me to where my heart belongs

I'm suffocating
My soul is on fire
Though I fear the flame, will too, flicker and fade
Then all that I am, will die beneath the night sky
While my knight stands just out of reach

On my knees
Hands clenched
Praying for a miracle

I dream to put my arms around my beloved knight
And I hope to do no wrong unto him
Instead, fill him with the love reserved for he who makes me whole

My love
Answer my plea
So we, two halves, can be whole
So that life may begin

And on my knees, I'm frozen
Jaded by an unyielding search
Dampened by relentless tears
Transfixed by the sapphires
That search my face
Worry etched into irises

Come to me
Come to me Knight

Darkness closes in, enveloping me
Green blades, damp with dew against my cheek
I breathe Mother Nature

I breathe
I pray
Angels lead me to my Knight
Lead me to where my heart belongs

And as the last tear soaks into the soil
So my lids grow heavy
Consciousness fades into unconsciousness
Dwelling between reality and fantasy

His hand touches mine
The sensation ardent, so vehement
I take with me the solitude of the moment
Enraptured by the feeling of my skin beneath his touch

I feel his lips at my ear
His luscious words my undoing
"Wait for me my love. Do not give up"

Though the morning light blinds me
My eyes are open for the first time
A new morning
Blessed with a new day

I grasp the gift of life with both hands
Cherishing it
My heart is filled with love
As I await my Knight

My Knight that rides with the moon
And sings the morning song of the early bird
I wait
I wait
I am happy
For the love I have will be vehemently encompassed by a worthy opponent
And my mind will be challenged by the eloquent Knight
In search of his light
In search of his half

To once again be whole
To once again be whole

Abstract Pain

The ear-shattering silence that envelopes me is unbearable
I find myself weeping for a loss I know not of
Past moments flicker by like lightening during the sunrise
As I reminisce of a time I no longer bethink

The Sensations that encompass my trembling body are nonsensical
Though I comprehend them all too well

A rhythmic pounding begins in my chest
Playing a familiar, lonesome symphony
And as the darkness writhes in
And the silence becomes deafening once more
I hum a new tune,
Unfamiliar to my ear

The realization has now set in
All feeling subsides
Numbness spreads throughout my tender frame
My head bowing to an abstract pain

I sit in the corner of a circular room
Encased by darkness
Shedding light on a lone inky tear that falls to my pale knee
Huddled against my chest
In hopes of binding together the ever-splintering organ that was my heart

And I sing a melody that has no words, no tune
I sing out loud, adding to the silence.
My nails scratch against a wall that isn't there
Leaving behind etches in the troublesome sphere

For the longest juncture of a short time
I remember
I dwell on memories that are not my own
Memories that play merrily in the dark abyss of my insane mind
And although sanity prevails, insanity wins
I am forever a contradiction unto myself

Two minds alike
Two souls entwined
Within one vessel
Inside my mind